An Empath's Hurt

To the Optimist,

A continuation of “An Empath’s Search”

The universe has a way of throwing broken people at me. It throws them at me because I am meant to help them grow. I am meant to help and my sole (soul) purpose is to help others and I’ve committed to that. And for you, maybe it had to be this big to wake you up. It had to almost break me to help you grow.

Aside from all that though, I’ve realized that this wasn’t a lesson for me, it was for you. Quite honestly you need to do some serious introspection and understand how selfish and inconsiderate you can be. It might be hard to hear but you have an opportunity here, and can treat this as a wake up call.

You have so much talent, and intelligence, and opportunity and you have an avenue to seriously change lives in a good way, but I know you could never reach that full potential without learning this lesson. you need to look Internally and do some serious work in self understanding and self development, getting rid of your ego and seeing the world for all the beautiful souls in it, not just your own. I really hope 5, 10 years down the road you look back at this situation and are able to see it as a turning point for you to be a better human to others. This world isn’t about you, success isn’t about you, it is about uplifting people and making the world better... not making YOUR world better. As a doctor that should be what you embody. Maybe you knew that before but you did not act that way.

I am a very strong person and this hurt me, it hurt me a lot to have trusted you and to be so easily brushed over without concern for my well being. But again, I’m stronger than you in that I know none of this was for me, it was to teach you to aim  higher. You’re going to do good things in this world, but you need to step the fuck up.

I know I’ve only been in your life for a very short time but I know exactly why the world brought us together. It was to show me how much I am needed in this world to help people like you, and it was to push you to be better, to be the person you were meant to be.

This situation was hard, and it almost broke me, and I get it, because it takes great big lessons to teach someone to make great big changes . it comes at the cost of my personal wellness, temporarily. But I am not broken, because I know myself better, understand my power more immensely, and will always, continue to help others no matter what the cost. That is my purpose, and that is why the world knew you needed me.

I honestly really really liked you. I haven’t dated anyone in the last year that I would even consider being in a relationship with, or found anyone who I thought was at my level. And for a bit there I thought you might be ..

I hope to one day, see you on the other side of all this a much more connected, whole human and really really do wish you the absolutely best.

Love from Newport Beach
Lauren Gavrailoff, T.W.O.